This entry has been long awaited by many of you, while others will read it and not think anything of it. Either way I hope to make some sort of impact in someone’s life over the course of my life; not only because of this entry but because of things I want to pass on from what I’ve learned. As mentioned this entry is way past due and almost a month ago I was in San Antonio trying to overcome the biggest setback in my life (possibly, only time can tell if I will be set back again. I have faith that I won’t but anything is possible. I just need to be prepared). I was sort of busy looking forward not worried about what I was gonna do about it. I was in San Antonio for a church conference that really changed my life and view on so many things going on in it. It was called Daddy’z Girls and to be honest I had no idea what it was going to entail. I knew it would be something good because like house the Joshua House of Worship never lets me down. But I was going to be the photographer and also to partake in some ministry. From the first night to the end I really felt something inside that was just so powerful. There were messages coming at me left and right and at some points I felt like I was the only person in the room, the lights were shining directly at me, and the speakers were speaking specifically to me.
When I described it to many different people they saw it as a “girl power” thing but it was more than that. It was teaching us self respect, self worth, self everything. So many girls really just opened up and it was really empowering, motivational but also very emotional. I was surprised to see how many women shared similar stories. It touched me in a way that really made me want to hug everyone that had such horrible experiences. So I want to touch a whole lot on this subject but right now this post really was for one main reason. So I’ll have to get back to the subject in a different entry.
So recently (about 2 weeks ago maybe) a friend of mine called me and told me some really horrible news about her husband. I was upset and needless to say I wanted to go get her and take her away from it all because I have known her for quite some time and I know she has been through so much. I won’t touch on the subject because it really upsets but also because it is not my story to tell. But I will say that it made me think about the conference a lot and what I was taught. Now for her it’s different because she is married and when it comes to something as serious as marriage, simply divorcing is really not someone’s first option, at least for me it won’t be. How much is too much? When is it okay for two married individuals to call it quits? Do you stick around to work things out and if so for how long? Marriage is a complicated issue for and it’s probably a reason why I am not married. I’d rather not go through the heartache of having the big wedding and it be all for nothing because of some issue that arose during the marriage itself.
The bible teaches us that God has someone for us here on earth. I really do believe that two people are meant to be together and if you let nature take its course you will find them. But you can’t say that person will be perfect. Problems will arise and you could face many obstacles. I think if it’s a strong couple they will work out it together. Sometimes it doesn’t work out, who knows the situation. All I am saying is this; if a man truly loves you, he will never put you in harm’s way. I don’t care if I said “For better or for worse” I don’t think I would ever stick around and let someone treat me like crap. I’ve been there and I can’t say it was years ago because it was months ago that I got out of my relationship and I’m still learning. More than likely I might come across another guy who tries to take me for granted and mistreat me. The important thing is to know when is when. I come from a line of women who stick around and “deal” with it and never realize how deeper into a whole they are getting themselves in to. Luckily, I have met someone people with so much wisdom to teach me right from wrong. Though they won’t be there to hold my hand every step of the way, they lead by example and I would love to one day be the same kind of person. It was because of the Daddy’z Girls conference, because of my good friend’s story, and because of my past that I take a stand. Ladies! We cannot let anyone treat us like we are garbage. Look yourself in the mirror and get to know yourself worth. You have no idea what you have to offer until you truly find yourself and believe in yourself. Sometimes we get down because of media and even our own families and we think it has to be a certain way. You have to believe you are worth more than anything in this world, and you deserve nothing but the best. During this conference we were taught to treat ourselves like royalty. Expect nothing but the best because you deserve it. No man, no woman ever deserves to be treated horribly.
I am in no way condoning divorce because I do believe in “for better or for worse” but you also have know how much is enough and just walk away. It may be the hardest thing you ever have to do but believe me; things will pay off in the end.
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